I can't take seeing my last jurnal again when I open up deviantart, why is it that writing something up seems so utterly stressing and complicated ? Anyway, I should be writting more, I should be writting at all. Also I could do with some more painting as well... darn it and some more socializing.
I am failing at all three of my main lifelong struggles; to be more sociable, to paint more, to write more. Everytime I feel I have them nailed down, I start to let myself go, the next thing I know I am standing here, with everyone complaining I've retreated into dissapearance and heaps of unfinished sketches collecting dust and cat hair, and feathers. Ah, I now have an Owl, her name is Merlina, she is a burrowing owl so she really likes to hide underneath furniture and make up burrows in between my shoe's boxes and stuff. She doesn't fly much, although she's a baby I read on the internet they are mosty earth bound little creatures, and never do fly that much. Vlad my Hawk likes to ignore her and do nice displays of flying mastery, but she's much more cuddly, she falls asleep on my lap and allows me to caress her back.

For some reason absolutely everything seems to be getting on my nerves lately, I've been having an unusually hard time going through the motions when dealing with people, specially I think because of this holiday thing...I know that for some people christmas is totally fun but I just don't feel it

I am always at a loss when I try to sum things up but I end up winging it acceptably well in the end so here I go
People, they are going kinda mad all around, yet life is well and moving surprisingly on the sunny side, I should take heed I either did something right or it's one of those signs and portents of.. say the apocalypse which I incidentally found out means "lifting of the veil" and it stuck me as a particularly beautiful metaphor.
We are at the end of out Schoolar year in my university -thanked be the fates- and so summer ensues, my lilies bloomed a few days ago and all over my jasmine plant trees turn breathing into a pleasure.
Right now I don't feel I should be too concerned by the ravings of the mad mean people that seem to be going bananas lately and acting in a menacing manner...thy don't deserve that much attention after all.
As for the bloody and bruised veil of this world, suffering and pain, I am just glad I can sometimes get a breath of joy and warm sunlit happy days, it's been such a long dark season -I need out, We are such stuff As dreams are made on, are we not ?



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It's been quite a ride lately, and amidst the chaos beauty sets the night alight with raging storm ridden skies and golden sunshine days. Somewhere along these ever revolving convulsing days I seem to have found a great deal of clarity, or is it just the illuminating quality of madness ? I couldn't tell you for sure, but I take my pleasure where I can find it, and right now these wilderness of the soul are my playground and my home.







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After a pretty long absence I am back, so what else is new ?
I've been very much engaged with college stuff, we did some
metallic outfits, and now we are insanely busy with the crafting
of our own busts. I'm doing mine as Medusa.
Not as easy as I first thought, but none the less very entertaining.
I finally got arround uploading some pictures of my vulture,
still I have to take better pictures since the current ones do not
make me that happy.


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